Recently I celebrated my fortieth birthday with family and friends.

Celebrating my birthday with my husband Greg

A time to reflect, a time to give thanks, a time to really think about my life. What do I know now that I am forty years old? I know that good family and/or friends are essential to my life, without them I could not have achieved what I have and would have had nobody to laugh with, cry with and share my life experiences with. Having good people in my life is more valuable to me than anything else I could wish for.

I know I am grateful for my life, I am grateful to be in good health, I may have had my health challenges but I am grateful that I have had the resources to overcome these issues, my challenges have only been small compared to what some people experience.

I am grateful for having a wonderful husband and group of family and friends who accept me for who I am and love me and support me in good and not so good times.

I am happy to have discovered a passion for health and nutrition which I didn’t discover until I was sick (I realise now that experiences in life hold a purpose even if it is not obvious at the time). I am happy to share my healing journey with people and to be part of their healing  journey.

I know that in this life, it is important to be all of who you are. There is only one  me, there will only ever be one me, so I choose to be me and not try to be someone else who I or others may perceive to be smarter, prettier, more successful…….blah blah blah. I am not more or less than anyone else. I just am. Thanks to Eckhart Tolle’s book A New Earth for helping me really understanding that.

When I was younger I was very passionate about “the truth”, knowing “the truth” and teaching others. It didn’t matter the subject, every time I discovered “the truth” I had to shout it far and wide and be right, of course, I had to be right! As I get older I understand that “the truth” is subjective, it is just our perception based on our experiences and who we are. We all have our own truth and that is OK. As I have heard said many times before, not sure who first said it but now I really understand it “the more I know, the more I know that I don’t know” and that is OK too.

I know I have a capacity to be mean, sensible, silly, angry, hurt, jealous, loving, kind, honest, dishonest, happy, sad, and much much more and I embrace that in myself, that is called being human!

If you know me, you will know that I love music, I have the capacity to bore people to tears talking about music, come to think of it, that is an idea for another blog! Listening to music, especially live music bring me great joy and inspires me in many ways. My life does come with a music soundtrack. If I hear Hungry Like the Wolf by Duran Duran I am a teenage girl in love again (with John Taylor from Duran Duran who was my real first love), when I hear Boys of Summer by Don Henley I remember all of the long hot summers of my teenage years being bored in the school holidays and wishing I was an adult and allowed to go to concerts! When I hear The Rolling Stones music it can take me back to when I was an early teen just discovering the world, meeting Mick Jagger at 17 (and yes I have washed my hand that he shook).

I love a wide variety of music and can always use it to calm me down or rev myself up, I especially need it to encourage me to do any housework. Some of the music that inspires me (it would need to be a separate blog for a complete list but here are a few), Rolling Stones, Pink Floyd, David Bowie, Joni Mitchell, Old Man River, Passenger, Kate Miller-Heidke, Ashleigh Mannix, Emma Dean, Dead Letter Chorus and the list goes on and on. I warned you, once I get started……..lol.

Some of what I have been saying is summed up really beautifully in a poem. I am inspired by all kinds of art. I would like to share with you a poem that I love, you will probably recognise it, some of you may have heard Nelson Mandela quote this poem:

Our Deepest Fear
by Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.

We ask ourselves,
“Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?”
Actually, who are you NOT to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking,
So that others won’t feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The Glory of God that is within us.

It is not just in some of us;
It’s in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give others permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.